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Why Not ?


As you become older, you just want a no nonsense kind of life. You just want to get back home after a long day, take off your bra…the panty is not such a bother….walk around the house freely, put your hair as high as your standards . Hit the shower only if it is really really necessary and get SIRI to remove your makeup. 

Dig into the fridge for some leftovers or just a piece of Lindt would just be fine. I rather live by myself alone without having any interaction with anyone. The lesser people you let in the bigger your personal space. At this very moment, I trust no one but myself. I only have myself for me. I don’t want to rely on someone to get my mood right.

Yes I have a few, and when I say a few…really few friends.  Over the years I let of many people from my list.  I think less is more. I am moving on.  I just let go of people I know for more than 20 years too.  The process was not pretty, but I have learnt to let them go. Memories on the other had are funny, the creep in when is not required and most time they make me sad.


Is not that I am sad because I miss the person, I just miss the memories. The things I used to do and places that I have been in. Then  I asked myself, “Who Said I Should?”  I am no longer going to listen to anyone anymore. I am only going to do the thing that I love and want. Only happiness filled activities. I just need to pause for a second and cry. Then I can restart. I keeping telling myself, I want to sleep early every day. I haven’t done that in a long while.



I just made a list of All You Should Do by 2020, Wanna see the list? It is long.
  1. Go on a Solo Trip
  2. Sleep really early and wake up really early
  3. Go for a long walk in the nature ALONE!!
  4.  Just breath when things are not within your control
  5.  Randomly spend some money on a random stranger
  6.  Change HAIR COLOR/STYLE  – Go for a look that you have never done
  7. Drop 10kg by hook or by crook
  8.  DON’T POST ANYTING ON WATSAPP STATUS, IG STORY OR FB TO TELL PEOPLE HOW YOU FEEL THEY DON’T CARE WHY SHOULD YOU CARE
  9. Let go of many more people in your life, totally block and delete their contact
  10. Don’t talk to anyone all thru out the weekend (No Communication Weekend)
  11. Master your career
  12. Write and Publish Something  - At least an article
  13. Read 5 books by 2020
  14. Get another tattoo
  15. Learn an music instrument – Piano – learn it
  16. Join a dance class
  17.  Visit more temples
  18.  Pause Love
  19.   Get a doggo maybe
  20.   Trust No One


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